Friday, October 31, 2008

Changing winds

Life is filled with an array of changes. Each day popping up when we least expect them to usually sending our lives into a different path than we anticipated. I have been employed as a nanny for almost seven years. It is one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. I have been known to say it is the best job in the world. I literally get to play everyday. I have been paid to take trips to the zoo, go to the museum, shop at the mall, visit the playground on warm sunny days, sit poolside in the middle of summer and probably my favorite cuddle on the couch in the middle of winter. Each and everyday is an adventure. I never know what is going to happen next but I make the decisions without the overbearing boss or annoying co-workers standing in my way. Although it is fun and thoroughly rewarding there is a difficult side to it all. Yesterday was my last permanent day with a family I have been working with for the past two years. In this line of work in order to be good at your job you became part of the family and love the children as if they are your own. In addition there will always come a point in time when the children grow up and you are no longer needed in the same capacity. Job security is all in the eye of the beholder. There will always be another family that needs a nanny but the duration of stay is always at odds. Letting go yesterday was quite possibly one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in life. The two little girls I have been caring for have been the twinkle in my eye for so long that I forget what it was like before knowing them. There are certain things I will never forget.......... creating a mini me (Karyn used to tell me Caitlin is me in minature form from comical relief down to the rolling of the eyes at 1 lol), the pinkie square (Middy's form of pinkie swear lol), cucu nuts, naked moves, super snuggles, the countless "i love you's" and asking "when are you coming home" daily lol. There will be a spot in my heart for them for eternity. I loved and was loved back in a way that many people never experience from children with no blood relation to me in a way that is indescribable. Now it is on to the next family. The next adventure. The next set of personalities. I walk forward with the hope that this situation will carry as much love and support as the last.....knowing it will be very different yet hoping that it will be just as positive. Wish me luck *SMILE*

Until next time
Live love laugh
Ashley

3 comments:

Courtney said...

You'll be fine! You are so good with every kid I've ever seen you with even though they all have completely different personalities!

You are amazing....Love you!

Cheffie-Mom said...

I came over from Courtney's blog. It sounds like the new family is very lucky to have you. (: Blessings.

Courtney said...

You know you need to write a new post about how the new family went. I'm anxious to hear, but I know your days are really long so I'll wait patiently.